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And rain made us stay
I let my back to lay
And we were afraid of May
Actions, and pray

And cold kept us trembling
Fear drove my freezing
And we smoke lips by lips
Our fingers fits

And I told myself
We must put it on the shelf
So it blooms never
No more problems after

"A pretty sight, a lady with a book."

- Shirley Jackson, We Have Always Lived in the Castle (via subtle-bisexual-wink)

"I can’t afford to hate anyone. I don’t have that kind of time."

- Akira Kurosawa, Iriku  (via man-of-prose)

Sudahlah sayang, berhenti menyuruhku untuk menemui mereka dengan gelar di depan nama yang didapat dari kuliah bertahun-tahun lamanya itu. Berhentilah juga mengingatkanku untuk menelan pil-pil warna-warni yang berjajar rapi setiap usai kudapan.
Hentikan semuanya, bukankah akan lebih membuatmu tenang?
Sekarang mulailah berpikir untuk melepas siapa pun di sekitarmu, terutama aku. Maaf dengan semua tentang diriku yang tak kuutarakan, cukup kertas yang berserakan itu saksi dan pembelanya. Maaf untuk keputusanku untuk menarik diri saja biar jauh dari ramai dan bisa pergi sendiri. Tidak, aku tidak lagi ingin bunuh diri seperti saat itu, tidak juga terobsesi dengan kematian, hanya kurasakan satu per satu jiwaku mulai lepas. Dan aku tak bisa melawan, tidak dengan nasihat dokter atau pil-pil itu.

odelampukota:

jika semua harus terencana dengan rapi, aku akan merencanakan kematianku sendiri.



Cause I have the right to die how I wanna

odelampukota:

jika semua harus terencana dengan rapi, aku akan merencanakan kematianku sendiri.

Cause I have the right to die how I wanna

"I think it’s time for me to collect the pills and arrange it inside a frame in pretty form then hang it on my room’s wall. Because it is too beautiful and colorful to be swallowed."

Hei, aku pergi dulu ya.
Siapa yang kau pamiti?
Entahlah, sepertinya ragaku.

The Buddhist teachings are extremely profound as well as varied. Some say of Buddhism that it is not a religion, but rather a science of mind, and some say that Buddhists are atheists. In any case,
Buddhism is a rational, deep, and sophisticated approach to human life that does not emphasize something external but rather emphasizes personal responsibility for inner development.

The Fourteenth Dalai Lama-Kindness, Clarity and Insight

"I’ve often lost myself
in order to find the burn that keeps everything awake
"

- Federico García Lorca, “Blind Panorama of New York”  (via marcescentfleur)

I walk. I walk alone. I walk alone in summer floral dress. I walk alone in summer floral dress and braided black hair. I walk alone in summer floral dress and braided black hair and glasses. I walk alone in summer floral dress and braided black hair and glasses like a nerd.

They walk. They walk joining hands. They walk joining hands and talk. They walk joining hands and talk about me. They walk joining hands and talk about me who is a nerd. They walk joining hands and talk about me who is a nerd and not romantic.

I say. I say yes. I say yes I am not romantic. I say yes I am not romantic and cold. I say yes I am not romantic and cold and heartless. I say yes I am not romantic and cold and heartless because I read or write. I say yes I am not romantic and cold and heartless because I read or write and smoke. I say yes I am not romantic and cold and heartless because I read or write and smoke during the date.

They judge. They judge because they think. They judge because they think they know. They judge because they think they know about me. They judge because they think they know about me whom never speak. They judge because they think they know about me whom never speak about my life.

I love. I love myself. I love myself and my life. I love myself and my life also my friends. I love myself and my life also my friends who do not judge. I love myself and my life also my friends who do not judge me of happy being alone. I love myself and my life also my friends who do not judge me of happy being alone and dress and braided hair. I love myself and my life also my friends who do not judge me of happy being alone and dress and braided hair and becoming a dull nerd.

Hey. Hey here I am. Hey here I am wanna be my friend?

"I had no interest in babies or the concept of motherhood. I was interested only in humans my own age and size, and could not generate any enthusiasm at the prospect of being a mother."

- Toni Morrison, The Bluest Eyes

"Then we make out everyday for you can’t stand for my lips."

"Dealing with feeling is overrated. Be a half-numb and you’ll be okay."